Mystic Musings: When Growth Gets Messy
When Growth Gets Messy ©2017 Joan M. Newcomb, CPC
We’d all like personal growth to be effortless and easy, smelling like spring flowers. It’s not always that way. Growth can get messy. Even when it’s something that we want, the precursor to, or the fallout from, the change can be really messy.
When we have a something we want to manifest, whether it’s a material thing, a relationship, or a condition change, to Consciousness it already exists. We just have to shift ourselves to that reality. But sometimes that shift is seismic.
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| It’s going to look so much better when you’re done |
I’m reminded of a woman I met who’d lost over 200lbs. Now, 200lbs is like dropping an entire human being out of your space. I asked her what contributed to her success and she shared that she’d done a lot of emotional work prior to the weight loss. That EFT had helped her work on core inner issues that supported external results.
I’ve had several times in my life where I called in enormous transformation, only to see my currently life razed to the ground before a new reality became established. Each time, it revealed flaws in my foundation. Let me correct that, *sometimes* there were flaws that came to light. Other times it was just that a new operating system was installed and all my old programs didn’t work any more.
(Now, if you’re going through a huge paradigm alteration, often the response to such growth can also feel “blah” or a weird sort of apathy. When you expand as Consciousness then all your old measures of success disappear. You no longer desire the material things you once thought were necessary. You lose that urge to compulsively fill empty needs. Satisfaction can seem boring. )
Messiness can look like a divorce, an illness, or big emotional reactions.
How you respond to this mess depends on whether you’re experiencing it as your body personality or as Consciousness. If you’re reacting as your body personality, you’re going to go through it kicking and screaming. I know, there were times in my past when I’d drive and scream at the top of my lungs, it was so painful.
If you’re responding as Consciousness, you might actually feel excited. You may be amused. You feel empowered and invigorated. You know that You, as Consciousness, are coming more into form. You are occupying your body space more fully.
You know you’re going through a life renovation or remodel. It’s possible to do this without getting divorced or sick. When you do this as Consciousness, you can create your loved one’s coming along for the ride.
I experienced this kind of remodel over a period from 2010-2013. My business was earning more than I’d ever had before, but my marriage was filled with conflict. Then my mother came down with Alzheimers and I left Seattle to go Washington DC for what I thought was a few months, to help her move. I ended up there for two years to help her die. My husband joined us after a year, and going through that ordeal brought us closer.
The relationship I have now is one I never imagined possible. We are more in love now than ever before. We have a prosperous life together. And my work has expanded to areas I’d never dreamed of.
You may be in the mess of your own Consciousness remodel. You can change your experience by shifting your awareness to viewing it as You as greater Consciousness.
As Consciousness you know the bigger picture. When you go through your growth experience as Consciousness, it actually is comforting to your body personality. As much as your analytical mind wants to control the show, it’s relieved that you as Consciousness are driving the bus.