Mystic Musings: Leaning Into Enormous Growth

Leaning In To Enormous Growth ©2018 Joan M. Newcomb, CPC

It’s been an emotional week, in a way that I’ve not been familiar with in a long time. Last Saturday I went to the Bronx and got stuck talking with a crazy lady (nice, but crazy) for 90 minutes. Normally I would have handled this with humor and grace. That day, I felt like running screaming from the room. Then I went to the Whole Foods in Harlem (it seems to be my mission to visit every Whole Foods in New York City) and the population density just tipped me over. I’m not used to not enjoying myself to this extent.

Wow, I said to myself. I’m in a huge growth space.

Six months ago at a Meetup I was leading in Tacoma, we were playing with walking through doors to parallel universes, and I hit this kind of resistance as I stepped through one. I realized I was initiating something momentous. I recall leaning into it and wondering what shift was set in motion at the time.

Voilà.

Of course, this began in August but whatever is going on this week is moving it to a whole new level.

Sunday, my sister-in-law’s 70 year old brother came from Taiwan to help. He’s here until February.  All I knew about him was that he became a nurse’s aide when he retired from the army. So we’ve been very excited about his arrival, because he can take over a lot of the physical therapy.

What’s struck me at first is his very kind face. And he’s far more gentle with my brother than I am.

In fact, all of my sister-in-law’s friends and family that have come so far have been extraordinarily kind and gentle. You can tell they genuinely love my brother.

But this guy has been driving me crazy in ways I would normally be able to rise above. There’s a 13 hour time difference between here and Taipei. That’s a lotta days of jet lag. I feel I’ve been enormously rude and petty. But we’ve weathered it so far and yesterday I felt like I’ve broken through some of my stuff. I mean, he cooked my organic onion for his dinner and I didn’t feel ballistic. That’s progress.

There’s a lot of reorganization going on here. Even as I lose physical space, sharing the room with him, I’m gaining time. Now all I have to do is phone calls and paperwork. And I can leave the apartment during the day. Freedom.

My business is shifting, too. I have a two week pause with clients. I feel something else is emerging and I don’t know what it is. I just need to lean into it, and see what I step through to.

Astrologically, this is my natal Jupiter return and the last time this happened was when my work and my world shifted from Newtonian Physics to Quantum Physics. That’s all. I can’t imagine what this year will bring.

But it’s such a time of breaking down, loss of old creations, stepping into new and unfamiliar things every day.

This is happening in different ways to everyone. How are you experiencing it?

What are you losing? What are you gaining?

This week ended with the delivery of a hemi cane. It will help my brother, who’s partially paralyzed on the right side of his body, get out of his wheelchair and walk again. This is a significant step towards independence for him.

And, it snowed.