I found myself walking into the hospital yesterday to visit a relative. The last time I went there, they were in the emergency room and I almost couldn’t go in, I was having so many flashbacks to taking care of my mother and being in the hospital and sleeping in a chair in her room for 18 days with her.
This time I felt an energetic shift as I walked into the building. My body, my energy system, felt fully in the present moment. I was aware of the memories but detached from the intense emotions from that time.
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It allowed me to have a pleasant visit with him, even setting up Skype so he could talk with his son.
This has happened in layers over the past few years. My mother went into the hospital in August of 2011 (first traumatic event). We went to the same hospital for laser treatment on her lung cancer in October. We went for a followup MRI in December where it revealed the treatment didn’t work. In February of 2012 she went on home hospice so we didn’t have to go there any more.
In June of 2013 my husband was hospitalized overnight for a suspected heart attack (it was an infection instead), and I was surprised at my visceral response. Different hospital, opposite side of the country, but even so.
And since then, there’s been three other hospital trips with different people, so I guess repeated exposure has helped de-sensitize me, and de-energize my memories.
For some people it re-traumatizes every time, and hardens into full blown resistance.
Today I see them as opportunities to release and let go.
Our past seems to revisit us but really the patterns are swirling about us all the time. We notice them showing up in our reality, because we’re passing through that pattern. It’s either unraveling or tangling, and we have an opportunity to respond differently.
When I don’t fight the memories, when I see the patterns as opportunities, I can soften to them and not get entangled.
When someone shows up in your story line from the past you can see them as an actor returning for a cameo role. Unless you want them to reenter as a returning cast member. It’s you’re show, you can decide.
Also, as you navigate your life from the perspective of Consciousness, you will notice that some people drop out of your life, because they’re no longer a vibrational match. You can view them as cast members who aren’t renewing their contract this season.
Just because your past is revisiting you, doesn’t mean that you are returning to a previous state. It’s like going home and realizing that your childhood house seems much smaller now. You’re bigger, and maybe no longer a fit for those circumstances.
Even if you want to go home, you’re not returning as the past person that you were. You get to be there in the present moment, as the adult and evolving Consciousness that you are.
Consciousness is expanding rapidly. We are experiencing frequencies accelerating at an unprecedented rate. There’s a lot of turnover happening right now.
Stay in present time and non resistance, and all this can be very enjoyable!
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Today on Conscious Conversations, Joan and Janet discuss Consciousness and World Upheaval. Many of us are upset with what we see happening in the world around us. How do we change it? Tune in today and discover how having a greater perspective as Consciousness can make a real difference in the Collective.
My dog Emma had a seizure and possible stroke this morning. She’s nearly 15 and her back legs tend to give out, so when I heard noises at 5am, I thought she’d lost her balance on the kitchen floor. Instead she was lying sideways, looking like she was running, except for the drool coming out of her paralyzed face.
We sat with her as it finished and tended to her for what seemed like hours as she regained her ability drink water and then to walk.
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I flashed back to 2013 when our other dog, Basil, died very slowly, probably from a brain tumor. He’d had an operation in 2010 that was temporarily successful, but when it apparently came back at age 12 we let him complete his life at home. It was an arduous and unnecessarily painful death.
Today, however, I sat with Emma and did my Consciousness Techniques on her, helping her electrical system come back on line when the seizure completed, allowed for the bigger pattern to reorganize, and still was surprised how normal she was when we were able to get her into the vet.
Thinking of Basil, I’d also communicated with her that if this was time for her to go, it was okay.
Basil’s initial illness came during a breakdown-breakthrough time in my life, in fact the operation and the year long repayment for it, helped postpone any decisions. Which lead to my being able to go back East to help my mother the next year. It was a time to hold on. Hold on to Basil, hold on to my mother. Yet I also held on to the on line aspects of my business, my radio show and my phone consultations, while letting go of my Seattle office and in person classes, and wedding business.
2013 was a time of letting go. My mother finally passed in January. We came back to Seattle with a dying dog. Basil passed in April. We let go of our house on Vashon Island that October, and after we moved to Tacoma, I flew back East to help my father pass. There was also some holding on – my husband was hospitalized in July for what was thought was a heart attack (it was not).
The last few years have been a time of rebuilding, I started a new radio show with a cohost, I started Meetups around the Puget Sound, and I restructured my coaching business. It’s felt like a long time of holding on, holding space to provide stability for new growth.
I’m aware of the cycle shifting again, and I’m wondering what letting go is required. As I wrote this, I got the impression that a sailing analogy was called for. Except I’m not a sailor. So I Google’d “sailing terms” and found this:
If you’re sailing through life, you have to hold on sometimes, and sometimes let go. If the wind is coming at you, you have to let go of your sail, and the expectation that you’d get there as soon as you’d like. If you hold on at the wrong times, you can get blown over or go off course.
When the wind is at your back, you still have to let go of your sail or it could violently swing and the boom knock you over.
We’re sailing through the energy of life and it requires skill and intuition. Just like sailing a boat, there’s a whole body artistry to it, sometimes holding on and letting go at the same time.
There’s an expression sailors use, to “leave it on the wave behind”. Let go of whatever needs letting go of, hold onto what needs holding, and you’ll get there more swiftly.
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How to Create Reality (a simple primer for manifesting as an Infinite Being) ©2017 Joan M. Newcomb, CPC
Reality is created from the non-physical. It’s created outside of time and space. It’s created beyond thought, although thought has an effect. It starts with an intent, a notion, and is given form through focus. It is created by Consciousness or Source, and which is the spark of life in everything. That includes what we would deem as not alive. It may not have perceivable sentience, but it has Consciousness as it’s source.
It is all Consciousness, and we are Consciousness. Our life Essence is Consciousness. We are creating this reality moment to moment.
Reality is a spectrum and has different densities to it. What we see, physically feel, seems solid, is one part of the spectrum. There is a part that we sense physically that we can’t see, we may describe it as a place’s “atmosphere”. It’s a collective resonance contributed to by all life forms (this can include plants and animals, and historic events).
Emotions are unique to our physical bodies, it’s our body’s communication system, it’s our response to the world and we can create from this part of this spectrum. You can bring your desires into reality by focusing on the feelings they create in you. (We unconsciously bring what we *don’t* want into reality by being preoccupied with uncomfortable feelings)!
Thought is another way to manifest into form. What we think about regularly takes on density, Which is why visualization, affirmations, and vision boards seem to work so well. However, if the mind that is using thought to do this is coming from the perception that there’s something lacking, something wrong, etc. – that will show up in the manifestation as well. Which is why you may find there is always a loophole or a glitch in the things you try to consciously create!
Reality seems solid and real yet can shift in mysterious, magical ways. It’s only part of the program in this physical game, just as time and space are part of the structure. When we create from the emotional or thought levels, it takes time and space to bring things into form. They have to be constructed within physical rules. There’s a rhythm to this kind of creation, it takes two years for things to manifest into form from first conception.
When we create as Consciousness, it is very effortless. It is ‘outside the box’ manifesting. The timeline becomes less fixed and solid. Things can happen instantaneously. Things may seem random. They don’t come in predictable ways, they usually show up ‘out of left field’.
Bring an open minded intention to Consciousness and the results are more than you can possibly imagine. The qualities of Consciousness are playfulness, curiosity, neutrality. As Consciousness, you are lighthearted and amused. There are no mistakes and nothing is ‘bad’. This world is a game, a playground, an experiment.
At this level, we’re not ‘co-creating’, it’s the realm of unity, oneness, I-AM ness. Nothing influences You, nothing is more powerful than You.
As you go about your day, shift your awareness from your normal way of thinking. Start to perceive the world as Consciousness, the Essence of who you really are. See everything as your Conscious creation. Notice what changes when you do that.
Give yourself time to notice what that feels like, without trying, without effort. And watch how your life reorganizes around you without your having to do anything to make it happen. Things start to show up in your reality with delightful synchronicity. All you have to do is appreciate and enjoy the process.
Try thing for the next seven days and see what happens!
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